Saturday, February 23, 2008

frustration sucks

when the body has been neglected for a while and then can not do what it needs to do to un-neglect itself, it gets quite frustrated... and alone, it gets even more frustrated... and frustration sucks...

4 comments:

j said...

hug

candoor said...

it sucks even more when the hug feels good emotionally, ethereally, from afar, but i know it would not feel comfortable in the flesh because i am, not comfortable in this flesh...

but who wants to feed that concept, no less acknowledge that experience... better to live in denial the human way...

or maybe not :}

j said...

I understand that, not so much from my own experience, but from understanding this from your words.

The experience of a hug in this body for me is something beyond merely an affectionate gesture, a hug as my experience is truly to experience someone's heart, and to receive and to give, a comfort, yes, but also a sort of "knowing", a "recognition", of our "sameness" and at the same time our uniqueness. Perhaps what some practices would call "namaste".

Ethereal far away hugs are an attempt to spread that same experience beyond the merely physical, which most people don't really get, it's seen as cute and girly, etc., which is fine, a hug is many things, and all things, much the same way love is.

So anyway,

another...

hug

:)

candoor said...

it still feels good, from afar... so i'm cute and girly? :)

there's still the senuality always under the surface, but the bloateder i get, the less sensual i fell... probably one reason i bloat more when i am alone...