Emo Eating and Return of the Burn

It would appear as though my emotional hungers are powerful stuff and can easily dominate this life when I am not distracted by something more healthy or focused on staying aware of optimizing this body or in love (or something like that). Also, the weakness of the rectal tissues appear to be a permanent aspect of life as breaking the routine of laxatives to give the body and digestive system a break from consuming chemicals lead right back to the bleeding and while I appear to have better control of the pain (or is that just scar tissue or dead tissue metastasizing or something?) with menthol-zinc ointment, the daily medicating was never in the plan for this life. So now two medications, on oral and one rectal, are part of my daily routine. BID, even. Sometimes more.

Blah, but still, I run the bases and bounce around in life with too much energy for my age group. I play ball a few times a week and I feel like I'm lazy and don't exercise enough. Now if I only could buy that elliptical...

Motivate!